Boy-oh-boy am I reading a good book right now! “Theology for Beginners” by F.J. Sheed. It’s very deep and I have to read it s-l-o-w-l-y and really think about what the author is saying, try to let it sink in. And so I prayed for help in understanding this particular book that I’m in the middle of…at the author’s suggestion. Like I said, there are some deep theological questions in here that I have thought of over the course of my life from time to time, like for a split second and then the thought is too hard to think of any further. You know the kind, like how we are created out of nothing by God. And then my mind starts thinking about how God came into existence, and the idea of how He always was in existence. And then I sort of freak myself out with those thoughts and push them away for another day.

Also, I prayed for confirmation that I’m in God’s will in moving to the Catholic Church, that I haven’t gone off on some rabbit trail in search of something more intellectually stimulating for its own sake, that this is important my search for Truth. I prayed and then I picked up my book to read.

I’m reading along and I get to the last part of Chapter 8, on page 64 when Mr. Sheeds words just jumped out at me:

“Our Maker has told us what he made us for–to come to the fullest development of our own powers in total union with him.

Let us first take a look at this. Man’s highest powers are intellect, by which he knows, and will, by which he loves (and according to his love, chooses). The object of the intellect is truth, of the will, goodness. Our intellect is to come to the fullest knowledge of the supreme truth–which is God. Our will is to come to the fullest love of the supreme goodness which is God.

In knowing and loving God we shall achieve the purpose for which God made us. “

Wow….this hit me like a ton of bricks. Goosebumps all over!!! I have such a strong need to know the Truth because God made me to want to know the TRUTH! It’s not my own intellect I am following after or ego that is driving me. He made me this way. How liberating this idea is. He made me to want to know Him and love Him and in the Knowing and Loving Him, I am achieving the purpose for which He made me.

That is why I feel so fulfilled in this quest for the Truth. He made me to WANT to know Him FULLY!

Thank you Lord.