I can’t believe that Easter Vigil is almost here! Today we had our last meeting together before Easter Vigil as an RCIA class. Sister Karen led the Retreat and it was a very beautiful time. Lots of reflections and contemplations. At the end the director, a sweet little elderly man who I have grown to love and appreciate so much, asked me if my family (dh and I and kids) would present the Gifts on Easter Vigil! I can hardly fathom that I am about to receive Holy Eucharist for the first time, and that our family will be involved in such a special way. The Lord is so GOOD!

Also, my very best friend, who has been confused by my conversion, shared with me yesterday (she is reading Thomas Howard’s “Lead Kindly, Light” loaned to her by yours truly) that she understands why I’m converting. Even if she never converts herself….she understands why I would. She shared with me that she is on a journey of her own. And that she has been having dreams that she is worshiping God in the Catholic Church. She is very drawn right now. Just the fact that she shared this with me right before Easter Vigil is such a precious gift from the Lord to me! I have PEACE about my decision to follow Him into the Catholic Church. I am so very grateful and humbled by His love for me. That He would care so much as to allow my friend to have peace for me at this point in time and for her to share that with me right before my reception….I’m just so awed as His timing.

The doubts are gone. I am still nervous about actually receiving Holy Communion now, but not because I’m not sure if the Catholic Church is True or not….no….my nerves have to do with the fact that I am about to receive Jesus in Holy Communion for the first time and how unworthy I am. How much he has loved me my and how faithful He has been to me my life, even during the times when I am not faithful to Him. It grieves me to know how I have sinned against Him and hurt Him during my life. But He is so merciful. Today at the Retreat we were asked to listen with our Heart to the Readings and whatever phrases jumped out at us to mediate on those words over and over, praying for God to speak to our Hearts. My words were “Come to me, I will renew you”. I am almost Home!